part of my msn conversation...(me is blu)"they poured water on my head and asked me if i knew wat was revenge...""WHO why?""who else....for fun lo""why you let her? ur not her slave or wat wat...why do you think she really does that" wat are u doing my dear...why are you still lingering around the black birds?"for fun lor...""...dont you know what is the meaning of taking advantages of freinds" "thats what all my freinds does...im am their slave...and they are my masters""then those are not your freinds! " am i not your freind..."thats why i said i hav no true freinds""...i guess if your happy with that than thats fine with me..." as long as your happy its ok if you dont know me..."happy...i forgot the real meaning of happy""then you have forgotten me... please...even though to you i am not of a true freind or you dont treat me as a true freind...its ok but at least be happy..."i have no true freinds...so your not happy....i guessok...im sorry...why are you smiling when you dont really mean itwhy are you crying when you havent even seen itwhy be strong if inside are lieswhy excuses than to risebut its ok if you are lonely its ok if you lock yourself upits ok to be their slaveas long as your happy....even though there is someone who wants to make you safemy hands were there for you to holdyou went to your "masters" as you have been soldi pray so hard for you to seethat if you'd looked beside you there is mei guess it will be impossible if you said no because i have to do what you have toldi guess to you, you have no freinds when i was there to hold your handbut its ok if to you im not your freindas long as you smile and fall in their plansit hurts so bad...to see you cry... to break my heart as you closed your eyesi guess i was too selfish to want you to smileeven though i loved you all the whilei guess i was too selfish to think that you treated me as a true freindmaybe my freindship is never worthwhileat least if you smiledmy will woudnt diebut now ....only the song of truth can be my guidevery sad...true story ya noe...why dont you love me....BTW I AM NO LESBO... im straight i love my freindsi am screwed for chinese... all the words that i wanted to check in the dictionary after i write finish hor...i have no time leh! then all blank...my knee's gotten better i can walk up the stairs faster now and i can sit with my legs bending slightly...woooi just hope there are no maggots inside...got scolded for not bringing my choir scores by mr tay....man im forgtefullstudy for history tomorrow...practise violin...draw...eh btw virid u noe helpin you with drawin will help me with improving toosooo... knock and he will answer seek and you will findi feel very sad just to let some ppl know im not in the mood for much stuffneed comfort from hayden and god...mama...
maybe im really too selfish...but i really...sigh nvm
