dear my freinds
i miss humans....they're warm and squishy and nice to hug...
gawd
diner dash, drama and manga marathon
i miss laiwan....i need a hug and i wont hug laiwan in her pajamas...who knows if she drools on them...
i miss fishie and her...coldness and mean-ness
i miss the uncomfortably warm atmosphere and pale yellow aura in the classroom...though there was always this somber aura arnd my table...
i miss virid and her....wierdness
i miss my table...i havent carved -i luv u table 2008- on it yet
i miss ms lee and her...forced smile
im sad and bored
and sad...
and bored
drawing 40% done in ...i dunno...i dun do drawing marathon...always halfway halfway than few days after do alittle...explains y i can never get anythign done...my juices run out quickly...okla
I DUN NOE HOW THE FUCK TO USE PHOTOSHOP -ignore-
wth...i cant even make a damn mark on the screen...no matter wat i do it refusese to change...it always...whiteT.T
well at least i can fix up some photos
dies~
went to fix n dvdrom into my com...now can watch all the dvds...including the ones crys lent me ^_^
went to this exercise thingy ...
the trainer....sho gay
but pretty
BUT VERYVERY GAY
urgh....
gay...
ok...nthin much to say liao...
must start drawing agn...
im deppressed my ma said this when i found out the upgraded com had photoshop...
ur drawing from young is good but ur colouring till now is like shit...
well...expected...never ever wanted to hold a colour pencil for my life...
but now
no choice
chooooo kawaaaiiiii
i went to watch one of the blog vidos fm this guy who transferred to japan as a high schooler...
and ...his jap freind called oo...ooshima?...err ...oo-...oo-somtin
BISHIEEEEEEE
MAN WATS WITH THE OVERFLOWING BISHIES NOWS ADAYZ
MAN
too much blood loss
somehow the guy looks like virid XDXDXD
SERIOUS PHOTOCOPY OK...except for bigger eyes skinny taller fairer perfect teeth...leaner face shineier and shorter hair ....ahem no ofeence intended
but no offense hor he looks better as a girl than joo...
NO OFFENSE
DUN WORRY YOUR NOT A FAILURE AS A GIRL...but maybe..NONONO
UR OK
just that oo-somtin is nosebleedable....
nee pork
-nodnod-
ABSOLUTELy
SEE IM SO MAD IM TOIN TO MYSELF
amazin he's not even tat fair...the class forced him to dress as a girl and the girls were crowding and putting make up....
SHO PRETTTYYYY
when its eyes open....for tat split second before he hit the poor cameraman....
big eyes long lashes ....ABSOLUTE
ZETTAIII BISHIE DESUUUU
KIREEEIIII
im sorry to say this but...I THINK THE PERSON WHO LOOKS LIKE HIM WHOM I KNOW IS A -BEEP- AS A GIRL
dun worry ...me too T.T
MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOD
rank 3 kagoi bishie oo-somtin-san OMEDATOO GOZAIMASHITA..
suge...blood
and the cameraman promised him he wont put tat on youtube ...XD
sugee...i realized my private blog is so in depth its like the ocean and this blog a swimming pool...
cool i shall transfer somtin here a shmallshmall passage i wrote i think may??
human psyche... recognized cause and effect of the interconnectedness of all things.
The word to describe this interconnectedness was "wyrd",
which was eventually perverted into the modern meaning of "weird".
It did not originally mean something unusual or strange.
Rather, it referred to the far-reaching effects of that which one does.
The concept of "fate" was also not as we know it now.
Instead of a helpless predestination,
"fate" meant a destiny created by one's earlier actions.
Wyrd was pictured as a web, like that of a spider.
When the spider steps onto a thread (a path) the vibrations affect the entire web
and that which is contained within the web,
just as our actions affect our immediate world
and those around us,
and the actions of others affect our lives.
But in human psyche a forced sequence of actions against destiny
causes consequences
only a fool will risk
i guess that fool is just me...but of course im not so stupid to play against the rules unless for a good reason...
why maybe ...though its hazardous
because i care...for both today and tomorrow...
the spiderweb effect
yay
i still prefer laiwan's words of wisdom
amen to her's so simple yet absolutely nice and deep
amen
tired.....sleepy...high
ahh....
cant make the kite fly ...i so louya T.T
man that place was perfect for a nap if nt for the bloody ants and the bloodysmall umbrella....
wanted to have a nice peaceful nap
so peaceful...
actually it would have been better if i had some small time to find a quiet spot with some trees...and hopefully no worms , bring my hifi set and put some classical music , stone and draw, read book...have some bananas sleep...rest...stone explore...get lost and hopefully find my way back and just stare at the ppl playing ^_^ tat would be really fun
just to stare at the ppl ...makes me so ...calm
too tired to move arnd in the sun too much
wat a nice aura....sho peaceful ...in a different way from the cemetry
it warms u...
and the cemetry chills you
but both are as peaceful somehow
very different but somehow similar in away
right next topic abt yesterday's funfunfun
trip to the cemetry
at 10.30 - 11.40
dun dare till 12
lets describe...
'you sit alone in the back hor jac'
'orh'
the emptyness of the bak seats gave me chills
lets go...
raeached the turn,
we're at the cemetry
trees ...left right everwhere
very darkness u can see random tombstones
my mum climbs over the chairs and next to me...clings on me like a baby...
silence
cold quiet ..but very peaceful
i like it
the cemetry at night is a wonderful peaceful place
it scared me at first ...when i saw the person between the trees i think- waving
i told myfather and he sped through
though ..after tat i felt really much better ......really not scary..
very peaceful...very sad sad place
very sad aura eeie but sad..i like
the one tat seriously was not fun was the macritchie reservoir one
a maid was hopped up and buried there...
i went there...BADBADBADBADBADBADBADBAD
ANGRY BADBADBAD AURA
dun ever go there
wooooo
scary
and the night before go scary nightmare...
somehow after the cemetry trip no more nightmar
got very perverted dream -nsebleed-
desturbin eh