after a piece of cheesecake and a srategy to keep me in control....
i feel much better
all my family thinks ive gone crazy still andall of them are trating me like somesort of animal specimen...
haiz
i should get some medication like those that make you sleepy and tired...so i cant think so much
or some migraine meication
i need a break...a kit kat...
so tired
im so sad i cant go cosfest
i caused 3 people to go crazy already bcus of my disorder.... a sunday school teacher...a consellor and my last time cell group leader...i dun wan anyone else to suffer bcus of knowing me....
i oso wil gila
i almost died telling my maid... but i didnt i kept my sanityto the end yayy....im quite surprised bcus usually i cannot say any further than i have a mental disorder that opposes me...this time i mangaedto say alot withou it stoppingme by force...ill kill it someday
ihope my maid doesnt go gila....bcus one thing abt this disorder is that soon after you know it fully...you will get it also
so i better not say anymore...anyway i cant allow it even if i wanted to...im not so secretive that i want to keep so many secrets
i have no choice... T.T
i think im going to tell someone everything
EVERYTHING is alot....
but i feel better already
ill tell someone....
maybe after that i can smile
i dont want to be binded down by my ownself
