i somehow feel.... that im becoming deader and deader in school...i thought about it...what if my problem becomes long term....how am i going to live like this...ill have to quit choir and bring inhalers when i go for oral...ill join art club...thanill b like tat bishie from bukiyou lol.... ( not that i want to) i now understand how poor bishie fm bukiyou feels.... its seriously getting on my nerves no matter how much i wanna express myself ...i cant im seriously relieved i still can smile and chuckle (silently)i wanted to thank virid so much for saying that she would give me there beyond the beyond for my bdae present...i intended on bowing profusingly and giving her the omygod thank u smile....but u noe wat...i FORGOT how to smile that smile....i think i jus look spaz man....i cant even say anything... i seriously wanted to laugh IM SERIOUS...when virid said virid got stabbed... ITS FUnNY BUT I cANT LAUGH even when loh was seriously funny i only could manage asmile....i like totally bang sei her lar...she was like waiting for me to respond and i...i...i...never do anything though it was really an interesting news...I DUNNO whats happening to me....and now my chst hurts bcus i drank my coffeee too quicklyi wonder how i would survive without the board...i cant even express myself now im trying to make the 'desperate' face but i cant i forgot how my face muscles worki now have only 2 expressions (like yong le XD ) the goong stone look (illshow it when im neutral happy sad angry lonely tired thinking) and the smile slightly look (when something is funny)omgoodness... something seriosly funyhappened tday...i didnt even laughafter 2-6 history test yongle came out ...i wrote 'how?' on the board...with her expressionless face she read straight fomr th board ;;;yl : how? (expressionless face)me: ... (expressionless face)yl : ...me: ... yl : *slight smile* (she is actually laughing real hard)me : *slight smile* writes on the board ahahahahha LOL ( im actually seriously laughng damn hard inside...DAMMMNNN FUNNY OK)and in the end when ppl looked at us...all they see is too silent goons staring at each other and suddenly smiling... STUPID LAR LAUGH OSO FORGOT HOW TO LAUGHnow i got no choice to express myself on the blog and in my drawings ...i tell you durin the day i have almost given up on the board...and u noe what i almost fainted on my way home when i tried to read a book out loud and walk at the same time...DAMN and guess which teacher is going to believe me....damnim so sorry virid and fish and chow and mel if i bang sei u all bcus i got no way to express my response.... nvm...since i cant jog ill diet! IF SOP CAN DO IT SO CAN INOW FOR SOME RANDOMNESS !!!what i feel like doing now 10. finish work9. diet8. start on an extreme art spree7. laugh and express myself to smeone6. sleep in the nlb5. drink a nice cuppa coffee....4. write my story3. playviolin 2. laugh1. READ YAOIIII WWWWWWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEalrite...i only will go to doctor when my state gets bad....bcus hor, i dun think i really needanyway can someone follow me to NLB every thursday to sleep with me there ^^