fuckok people.... i dun wanna say this and i intended on keeping this issue a secret but for some ppl's safety i have to spill the beansnobody may fuckingbelieve me...but believe it...i have a mental disorder okay. its sorta like schizophrenia well...its a disorder of opposing subconscience...please fucking believe this...i was bloody born with this disorder... my mind is set years ahead of my body FUCKING BELIEVE ITbcus of this my body cannot dahan it created a subconscience that is of my current age with ...it means tat there are 2 jaclyns and I am TRING TO BALANCE THE BLOODY 2SADLY ive been under too much pressure which is very personal and related to family so i wont elaboratealot of my illnessess are caused by the beliefs of the sub conscience...I CANT BLOODY HELP IT OK ITS NOT ME... ITS JUST THE BLOODY OTHER ME WHATEVER SHIT FUcKLso my organs are fine but my body gets confused and it often reacts badly FCKING BELIEVE ITTHIS IS JUST A scientific theory...wat im feeling now is NOT FUNim trying my best to balance back on the line i lost it when i went to the sick bay. I TOTALLY LOST IT IN THE HOSPITAL AND YES I WNT TOTHE FUCKING HOSPITAL AND THE FUCKING DOCTOR CONFIRMED MY MADNESS AND THEY DID FUCKING TESTS ON ME BLOODY HEEEELLLLLI HATE HOSPITALS!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE THEM ALL THE BLOODY THINgs THERE ONLY KNOW HOW TO TAKETESTSTESTSTESTS AND MORE TESTSthey poke poke press press probe probe and take your money i just tried to control THATS WY I BLOODY TOLD PPL NOT TO SEND ME THERE OR TELL THE BLOODY TEACHER OR MY BLOODY PARENTS ITS MY MIND NOT MY BODY BUT IF I WERETO TELL U ALL TAT NOONE WILL FUCKING BELIEVE ME OK!sorry...i cant control ..okok....shit.this is one of the reasons im trying to keep my expression down....this is not funand this is not a freaking jokeIF YOU VALUE YOUR LIFE STAY AWAY FROM METHIS IS NOT JACLYN this is what i was trying to tell u virid....I WARN YOU IF I HARM YOU IN ANYWAY I WILL GO TO JAILIF YOU VALUE YOUR LIFE DONT FUCKIN BRING ME TO A COUNSELLOR THIS IS SOMETHING I HAVE TO FACE by MYSELF WITH MYSELFdont try your luck.... im not safe this is fucking serious tell this to genevieve and monkey....DONT TOUCH ME DONT COME NEAR MEim serious...i hav been through this beforeif i have a weapon i will use it...if i lose it... it wont be me anymorei cant control....its not me i will use it on anbody in my sight even myselfso DONT bloody cross the linewriting this is really difficult for me...this is seriously personal so plase shut up unless its emergency like if you need to tell monkeyif you really care about me...care about yourself and STAY AWAY I WARN YOUif u wanna clarify urself either make sure im chained down or wait until i tell you its safeDONT FREAKIN TRY UR LUCKjust treat me like im invisible thats enoughignore meYOU BETTER NOT THINK THIS IS JOKE BECUS THIS ONE OF MY FUCKING TRUE SECRETS... bloody fuck I AM UNDER TREMENDOUS PRESSURE AND I DONT SHOW IT I NEVER DO DONT TRY YOUR LUCK STAY AWAY i beg you....dont get hurt because of meFOR THE FUcKING LAST TIME THIS IS NOT A JOKE IM SERIOUS